heh..wednesday..at home..and avidly trying to get some sleep..cause ive been having a little sleep after all thats happened for the past few days. I think..i have never been so depressed for a long while..being the fact im usually a happy ditzy buttnutt that ceers other people up..contemplating suicide? naah..I was thinking more along the lines of running away somewhere up North Cali. ^^;; heh for people who know me..they know who these people are but..its been ok i guess..i think everythings been pretty much..decent..cept im on lockdown fromthe internet for about 3 weeks..so no kenro and no aim..and defiantenly no tabula..unless somehow..i can write something at the school compi..>.> yea..i have become an actual nerd and actually go to the school compis during lunch..before school..and hald an hour after school.

Hence..i miss alotta mai people in Kenro..i think they're way more cooler and funnier than the people i actually know in real life..or maybe because real life is bitter and hateful..>.> or i could be pist off immensely rite now..lol..dunno..but i miss a certain person rite now a lot..cant stop thinking about him..or wondering about him and worrying whether or not he's finding some other girls *cough cough cough* and yeah..hes a real number 1 sweetie..lol..actually all the people in kenro are actual sweeties..^^;; and now that i mention it i should be starting on my christmas presents for everyone..nothing fancy since im dirt poor but its handmade..^^;; hope you guys like it..nand for the people that are getting the thing and are very very far away from me..er..i'll find a way to get it to you by x-mas.

On a lighter note I went to the park after school like around 6-ish..and it was pretty dark but still has a *bit* of lite..so i walked around inthe swings wondering about hell..the future what the fuck im gonna do with myself and so on and so forth..i realized..i dunno what the hell i wanna be besides either 1. a fashion designer or 2. a home decorator..lol..funni stuff..and i was dwelling and walking shivering..>.> but it was nice..thinking how romantic it would be to actually spend time with the guy i liked here at this time..>.> im a dreamer *shrugS* i guess im supposed to think like that but yeah..it was a good daydream as it lasted..so now i sneaked on the computer to say goodbye to everyone..yes 3 weeks w/o internet is very terribly horrible for me..but..alls well that ends well right? ok..so ciao for now <3 you all and peace <3

MucHo aMor
liney teh one n onlee <3

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rather confused..and hurt..and i dunno what to do..oddly..i find it funni and twisted how life oculdmake me happi and then screw me over in the next ^^..thank you and have a good day

argh..pretty confused and tired..and..damn exhausted..i feel like life is draining away from me..and iono feel headacheish..am i coming down with something? I hope not...I still have school 2morrow..*yawns* anyway..im at simons house celebrating Leo's 17th birthday..so HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEO! lol..soo today was decently ok..lol..went to walmart to get some eye stuff..and debated over the common girl question of...PADS or TAMPONS? lol..so obviously i chose tampons..cause..well tampons are much better..as i went out i think i dropped it on some guy..lol..you shoulda seen the guys face..he was paranoid that i accidently dropped it on him..lol..and it feels so x-masy lately..lol..i love christmas..actually i like winter in general..it feels so homeyl and romantic or it mite just be me..lol..hmm..so yeah..im actually gonna admit it..i am indeed a RO ADDICT..im sure this is gonna bite me in the ass one day when i study for that instead of the finals..but er..i'll think about that later..and i still have a evita peron project to do..hm..and ro..i find it a intresting game..how i could meet so much people..and that i can escape to it..when i need to..that is how i know..that im more in love with the game than with my own life..which sucks by the way..hehe..and so..that is all for now..partially cause theyre calling me out for dinner but yeah..<3 blogs later mUAHSSSS! I <3 YOU KENRO PEOPLE! esp you ^-~ ja ja ja ja ja ja ja ja ja!

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have
your pet peeves, but other than that, you're
mainly calm. Blending in with your
surroundings, you're the type of person who
everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks
jokes at social gatherings - after all,
laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you
pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you
could be the next Einstein.


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lol..i guess im a bit like that..lol..days have been going like crap for me..an actual mofo..but..i met some people..that has made me so happy..to the fact that even tho i cant smile at school..i can smile when they say something silly..i <3 them..and hell if your reading this i <3 you..hehe..even tho we've know each other for so little days..i ove you guys <3 and yes indeed im in a somewhat better mood..on the other hand..=P real life is a bore..lemme be a online loser ^-^

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i give up..on understanding people..they are nothing but stupid dumbasses..i swear..and from now on..im just gonna post up the results of mai quiz..thank you..and have a good day..